Today has been unnecessarily stressful. Usually when I am stressed out I eat. Part of the reason I got to the place that I did. I am craving a pizza so badly right now. I even went so far as to open my internet browser and head over to papajohns.com. I closed it and said no. Then a few minutes later I opened it again and logged in. I closed it again and said no. I opened it once more, logged in, put in my promo code and put my order together. I sat and looked at the checkout cart. Looked at all of the carbs, sodium, fat, and calories staring me in the face. That little voice in my head kept saying no no no no no. It isn't worth it.
I got up and walked into the bathroom. I looked at my reflection in the mirror. I studied my lower abdomen which has become considerably smaller since I started this journey. I know I didn't get here by eating pizza. I didn't lose the weight I have lost so far by giving in to cravings and thinking "Tomorrow is another day, I can make it up tomorrow by eating well".
I sat back down and looked at the screen. I stared at it. I started at it for about 10 minutes before I closed the tab again. I am trying as hard as I can to fight that urge to order the pizza. It would be so easy. Just push the checkout button and boom. Stress gone. For about half an hour. Then I would spend the rest of the night stressing about how horribly I ate today and how awful the scale numbers are going to be tomorrow.
This is why depriving yourself of all of the foods that you used to eat is a bad thing. The cravings are horrible. On the other hand you can let yourself have certain things such as pizza in moderation as long as you stay under your calorie goal. However I know that once that pizza is in front of me there is no stopping me. It's like dumping chum in front of a shark. With that thought of a lack of self-control I know that I cannot order that pizza. I need to suck it up and eat something healthy. The cravings are not going to go away overnight but the important part is not giving in to them.
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